LOL...LOL...LOL

Literally Laughing Out Loud here!!!!!!!! That lasted what? All of two days!! Ha Ha!! Ok, Well, here's to beginning again (and most likely, again and again and again)!! But ya know what?? It's ok! So what?? I'm a work in progress! Big deal!! Aren't we all?? So, I'm starting over again! I'm currently working at Hickory Day School and loving it!! I'm a teacher assistant for the TK/K classroom in the morning and 1st/2nd grade in the afternoon. I'm trying to get life organized and thought (again) this might be a good place to start. However, this first post (well first in a year or so) will be short. Due to the time (10:38pm on Sunday night) and the fact that Michael just got home, I want to go back downstairs and talk to him for a bit before going to bed. But hopefully... I shall return..... With frequent updates and quite possibly some vents and rants! But it will all be good!! :-)

Day 1 Begins

Well I did it!! Got up at 4:30, was at the gym by 5:00, did 30 mins on the treadmill and 30 mins on weights, was home by 6:15, out of shower by 6:30 and am currently doing battle with my son to get up and ready. And so sets the trend!! I'm tired, but quite pleased with myself!! :)

Well, here's to attempt number 378 of keeping/maintaining a blog. Is that the actual number of times I've tried to start a blog? Well, NO!!!! That would require way too much organization. See, things like "organization," "focus," "attention," "detail," etc., are more times than not, foreign concepts to me. Yes, my name is Kim, and I am an adult with Attention Deficit Disorder. I cringe at the notion that it's no longer referred to as ADD. Used to be, there were two types of attention disorders: attention deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD)and attention deficit disorder (ADD). It is now defined in three separate ways: 1. ADHD, Combined Type: Both inattention and hyperactivity-impulsivity symptoms; 2.ADHD, Predominantly Inattentive Type: Inattention, but not enough hyperactivity-impulsivity symptoms; 3. ADHD, Predominantly Hyperactive-Impulsive Type: Hyperactivity-impulsivity, but not enough inattention symptoms. All that to simply say, I'm classified as having ADHD, Predominantly Inattentive Type. However, when I see the "H" in ADHD, I think "Hyperactivity" and that's something I'm just NOT!!! LOL So in my mind, I have adult ADD. No matter the name, it tends to make life rather difficult. My hope, is to come to this blog at least a few times each week as a way to add some structure and focus in my life. You see, I'm in the process of setting some new goals for myself. My husband and I are going to start eating healthier and exercising. We both need to lose some weight. Add to the healthier lifestyle, being a mother, wife, daughter, friend, church member, etc., etc.... It can be quite maddening...to be all things to all people. I've tried really hard in the past to improve these areas of my life. But inevitably, I'll make a mistake, think I've failed, and give up. I guess I'm also a perfectionist, in that my attitude is often, "if I don't get it exactly right the first time, then I can't do it at all." Logically I know no one is perfect (and that includes me...lol), but emotionally I lose motivation so easily. I have GOT to keep going and not give up!! I've got to give up my perfectionist attitude and take baby steps and know that I'll stumble along the way. What's important is to get back up immediately after the fall! Not just lay there in a pool of pity. I believe one of the key components to any of this, is to not lose sight of the goals...the baby steps. And that's what happens to me so many times when I stumble. So, the purpose of this blog is to help keep me focused and on the right track.